Monday, June 3, 2013
Overwhelm & How I'm Dealing With It
Lately I have been completely overwhelmed by my never-ending to-do list: housework, laundry, meal planning and preparation, lawn care, family care, repeat. In addition, I'm trying to nurture my creative practice of art-making and writing, with the goal of starting a small business. There are never enough hours in the day and I've been feeling frustrated by the lack of time available to do the work that needs to be done in order for me to reach my goals.
See, here's the problem: I love to learn. Thanks to the plethora of courses offered on the Internet, I've been to indulge in my passion without so much as getting out of my pj's. In the past year alone, I've learned about Buddhism, mindfulness and meditation. I've read English novels, American novels, learned how to look at and appreciate fine art and learned the basics of composition theory. I have also learned to paint and have greatly expanded my repertoire of mixed-media techniques.
Is it any wonder I feel overwhelmed?
What I've discovered is this: While self-growth and development is a grand and noble pursuit, it can also serve as a distraction, a form of procrastination, and a cover for fear.
"I will start my next painting as soon as I learn this one more technique..."
"I know I can write my blog/article/book just as soon as I take that course offered by a published writer and read those three books..."
Anyone with me here?
So this is what I propose, and feel free to join me:
Instead of enjoying my morning coffee in front of the computer, I will do my morning pages and work on my own stuff for a set amount of time (I'm thinking 2 hours to start). This is kind of like setting a toddler in front of a candy store and telling him that he can't go in, but I am strong. I can do this.
And, like a toddler who has dutifully obeyed his parents and been "good", I will then reward myself with computer time, email time, reading time, and fun project time.
Oh, and housework? That will have its proscribed time too. It will be done at 3 pm, one hour before hubby gets home from work. There's nothing more motivating than a deadline!